Day 66: Laziness, No Motivation, and Finding Inspiration

Hello one and all! I'm having an insanely lazy day. I have zero energy to do anything. It's noon, and I still haven't even had breakfast. I'm supposed to run today. And I probably will later, but I think I'm going to drag myself out of bed now and do my arm work. On days when I really don't want to run, I find that making myself do something makes me feel a bit less bummed about running.

I have been feeling so unmotivated lately. So I've been thinking about it, and I decided that in addition to my goals of being healthy and strong and capable, I should add some shallow goals in there too. Pure vanity goals. So here are some, off the top of my head:
1. Look good in a bikini. I want to wear one without worrying about how much my butt is jiggling and how visible my stretch marks are.
2. Have legs that look toned and sexy in heels. Plus I'll look taller!
3. Have arms that scream "I'm strong, deal with it!"

Some more motivation stuff, regarding nutrition and my messed up eating lately: when I eat better, I feel so much better. I need to stop thinking about food as a treat. You know, "I worked out today so I can have that ice cream." The working out should be reward enough, knowing you're doing something amazing for yourself. And I want to retrain how I think about my workout time. It's the time of the day where I focus on me. It's my own time, I should look forward to it, not dread it!

So there's a little blurb on that fun stuff. I'm off to do weights!

Day 40: Sick As a Dog

Hello one and all. I've been up since 4 AM, making friends with the porcelain goddess. I feel so sick. I've got cold sweats, dizziness, headache, nausea, an upset stomach... And I work a nine hour night shift that starts in about an hour. And I start another nine hour shift at 7 AM tomorrow. I feel disgusting. I really hope it's slow tonight some can try and leave early to hopefully sleep this off. Oh joy, can this week get any better for me? I tried to work out today. I did a couple of exercises, nothing compared to what I should be doing. This cycle is just totally draining me. I hope I get my motivation back when my period is done. The running is hard. But the weights are so beyond difficult it's ridiculous. I've been struggling to do half of what I was doing last week. It's frustrating. Anyways, have a good night folks. Be safe this weekend.

Day Twenty: Looking Forward to Tomorrow's Cheat

Hello one and all! I just dragged my sweaty butt off the treadmill and out of our "exercise room" post ab workout and stretch. And today was crazy hard. I'm exhausted, I got up at 4 AM for work. Then I came home, and ran around town for a few hours with my parents. I can say completely honestly that I was seriously considering skipping this workout. After all, I kept telling myself, one day is one day, right? Well, for some people I'm sure that is a workable mentality. I really don't think it would be for me though. I mean, I've been there before. I think I just need a day off, then one day becomes two, then three, then a week, and then that's it for my diet and exercise. I don't want to do that to myself again. So I pushed through anyways.

And I feel better now! I think I'll have enough energy to last me until an early bedtime. So it's worth it there, right?

So tomorrow... I will be posting my three week results! Crazy, right? Can't believe it's been three weeks already, even blogging every day it just flew by. Also, I don't want to make you jealous, but I'm having flippin prime rib for dinner tomorrow. Aww yeah. We shopped for most of the 17 Day Diet stuff we need too. Chicken, egg whites, Greek yogurt, tons of vegetables, a bit of fruit... It really doesn't seem so bad. And if it gets my blood sugar under control, I'm all over it.

That's all for today, happy Saturday, kids!

Day Sixteen: Hitting the Wall and Busting Through it Hardcore

Hello one and all! So today was Week 3, Day 1 of my Couch to 5k training program. Today, I had to run for three minutes straight, which doesn't seem like much, but it's twice the length of time I've run before. Holy cow. I didn't think I'd hit a wall until I had to run five minutes or more at a time, and today I hit the wall immediately after my first three minute run. I was tired. I was out of breath. And I honestly didn't think I could do it. I was ready to give up. And I came real close. But then it hit me...

I haven't come this far for nothing. Two weeks ago, I could hardly run a minute at a time, and now here I am, running three minutes at a time.

Some days I feel embarrassed about how little I can do. But then I realize that when I started, I couldn't even consider doing what I'm doing now. So I just repeated my apparent running mantra:

I am strong. I can do this. Change won't come by coasting. I have to push myself every single day.

I sound like a bad motivation book, but honestly, it really helps me to focus on my progress. Anyway, I'm just having my protein shake and relaxing while I watch Iron Chef America. Definitely one of my favorite shows. And tonight... Playoff game! I can't wait. So exciting! And again, many thanks to my Moey and Papa!

Have a great night, everyone!

EDIT: Check out these awesome ab moves! I tried a couple, and they are wicked hard! I've decided I want to be able to do The Wicked Wiper. Scope the moves out here:

http://www.womenshealthmag.com/fitness/abs-workouts